GOD. I spent so much time bring back this blog and Tripod goes and kills my hosting. Blah. Anyhow, I've moved to LJ: breadwithstyle. Have fun, j0. :3

Seems like everyone's getting their hair either cut or styled. Got mine trimmed (Megan: a lot!) on Monday, actually. People like playing with it, apparently. :D;;

"omg it's soooooo short/cute/nice/SHORT!?!"

Hah. Even though half my hair is missing, Megan and Michelle still find ways to mess with it. Sticking flowers into it, pigtails, putting it up; you name it. I find it all rather amusing... except when I start sneezing. Damn colds. XD;;

12 minutes left on break... yay? I know that technically I've got another hour or so of nothing, but I'm doing homework so I suppose it doesn't really count for anything. Sort of hard to concentrate this morning, what with my irregular sleep patterns and all. :D;;

Lately, I haven't been sleeping at the... correct times, so I doze off at the most inopportune moments. I was talking with Ariadne and Megan last night, and I managed to fall asleep on them. (surprise, surprise) Not only that, but after I woke up a couple minutes later and said goodbye, I fell asleep AGAIN, and this time stayed asleep until, oh, I don't know... 2:30 a.m. And then it gets WORSE. I had to take a shower because I fell asleep before I could remember to. As well as brush my teeth. My sentences aren't structured very well. My writing's crap today. XD

We'll see about that when I post this, Mego. My fringe seems to amuse you. :D;;

Wow. I can write tonight. :D Usually, I have problems being all... touchy feely, so I should take this opportunity to say that I love everyone. Yay. XD

I suppose I should blame my English assignment for this sudden ability to express myself. Thank you, Ms. O'Donnell. :D;; Now, let's all go and share our greatest fears. I'll start. Those of you who are super-extra-close to me should understand the significance of this.

“Down and Alone, and His Soul is Broken Again”

Most everyone can tell you what their greatest fear is. There are those with the run-of-the-mill, clichéd phobias: fear of heights, death, spiders… and then there are those with your not-so-average “worries:” the number thirteen, trees, balding men. Although the sudden glint of sunlight off of someone’s head does startle me from time to time, I have a stronger fear of being alone. By this, I’m not referring to everyone’s nightmarish situation where you’re staying home alone at night while a storm rages outside, the crackle of branches underfoot coming closer and closer to the house until a loud crash and the tinkling of broken glass coupled with heavy footsteps echo throughout every room, and you are forced to anticipate some horrible outcome, almost always resulting in you lying dead on the floor in your own blood (depending on how morbid you are). No, I’m talking about the feeling of being alone, floating in the sea of people around you. It’s terrifying to imagine a life without any friends, any loves, any parents, anyone. How would you live without having cared for someone, having loved someone, and having that feeling returned to you? I wouldn’t believe anyone who said to me, “You know, I kinda find I like a life this lonely.” It’s crazy to even think you can get along in our world today without having some sort of companionship, people who guide you and care for you just enough to make sure you don’t get yourself into trouble. I’m thankful for everyone I know who can find it in their hearts to put up with me, because that’s definitely no small task. My parents, teachers, friends; the people I hold dear to me; every one of them has done something to steer me in the right direction, lest I get disoriented after one too many spins in my proverbial office chair. The fear of having to grow up without anyone or feeling any love, and living in what is essentially a giant bubble, devoid of interaction with others, is one that I do not take lightly. The very suggestion of having no one to love, in whatever way implied, is enough to give me nightmares (although I probably won’t remember them in the morning). Having someone to share everything with is my greatest comfort, and it tramples all over my “greatest” fear.

Hello there Mego, Nicholas... licorice. I know you're standing behind me. :D

I need to start my Biology lab. Michelle, if you read this before Monday (i doubt it), remind me what our hypothesis is. XD

[edit: ...10:35 p.m.]

Regarding... pimp marshmallows. They suck. They've... been around. They're stale. They don't taste good. No one wants them. If you give someone a pimp marshmallow, you're only cememnting the fact that you don't think they're good enough for real marshmallows. How would you feel if you were on the receiving end of a pimp marshmallow? To know that the person you would do anything for thinks you'd be satisfied with a pimp marshmallow is just... horrible. Horrible beyond words. Even suggesting to someone that you would give them a pimp marshmallow is vile and disgusting and despicable and all those other terrible adjectives that I can't be bothered to think of at the moment. Never ever ever give anyone a pimp marshmallow because they'll probably bitchslap you into last week. No one wants to be bitchslapped into next week. Therefore, pimp marshmallows = NO. Pimp marshmallows are not special at all and no one wants them. So don't give them. Marshmallows are meant to shared with people who are special to you, and pimp marshmallows don't have any flavor, anything to validate giving them to someone. It's impossible to appreciate pimp marshmallows 'cause they JUST DON'T MEAN A GODDAMN THING. ::heavy breathing::

I've just alienated the sane population of the world with that rant. How nice. XD

Marshmallows can be very confusing, indeed. I need you guys to talk with me to understand them a little bit better. (You know who you are. And yes, that is a plural. Also, you should understand that I'm not mad at anybody. :3;;)

I'm such a goldfish. I have a five second attention span, and apparently it doesn't help when someone's talking to you. Also, I have selective hearing. My head is defective. ::bonk:: :O

I sorry Mego; I no pay 'tention~ waaaah. ._.

[edit: 11:00 p.m.]

omg i have to stop updating and start finishing homework. ::log out::

Okay, okay, I'm updating. Shut it, bitches. XD;;

...I'm kidding. :D;; Anyhow who way, I've been through a lot the past couple of weeks, and... uh... yeah. :D;; Spring break and such.

Mold is the most interesting thing, wouldn't you agree?

...People are staring at me. I'll come back later.

(...you'll never see me again ahaha! XDDDD)

Taking advantage of the free wireless in the library to post. There are no wires! :D;; (DAMN YOU DIAL-UP. XD)

Laws of Life essay is due tomorrow and I have no ideas to make it better. Fuck. I'll come back later.

OMFG HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEXANDER PAUL KAPRANOS HUNTLEY. :DDDD

I'm doing homework right now, but this is important enough to merit its own little post. :D

This weekend rocked. XD (You know it, Nicholas. :3)

Alright, I know I'm lazy. You guys can shut up now. I've got some time to kill before school, so I might as well update. XD;;

Angie's birthday yesterday (yay! :D). Ariadne gave her a banana and she kept waving it at me until the stem broke. XD

...Oh wow. Today's St. Patrick's Day. I remember why we're wearing green now. :D;; Megan and ...Nicholas XD wanted me to wear my school uniform from last year just 'cause it was green.

"Wear the skirt! :D"

I'm going to kick them. Or maybe just Ariadne. I'll tickle her. :3

...Hi Megan. :D;;

Let's all be Scotrish! We'll live in Glasdolin. XD

I know I said I'd be posting more, but somehow all my homework this week decided to... pile up.

I'm such a liar. XD

Why am I even awake? ...Wait. Don't answer that. XD;;

The Favorites, Have-You-Evers.. and Last Times! Oh, the variety!
Created by -ambiguous and taken 42619 times on bzoink!
What is your favorite..
gum	Dentyne Fire's always good. :D
restaurant	Dim sum
drink	Grapefruit juice. Or tea with milk. Or Stewart's sodas.
season	Summer... winter... gah. Pick one.
type of weather	A light drizzle's always fun to walk or laze about in.
emotion	Happy happy joy joy. :D
thing to do on a half day	Hang around at school (omg we're deranged! XD)
late-night activity	IM conversations. I get smarter at night. :D;;
sport	Baseball. Take me out!
city	Glas...don. Glasdon. (wtf. XD;;)
store	Carry orange ties and I'll love you. :3
When was the last time you..
cried	Tuesday.
played a sport	...When'd we have the unit on soccer? :D;;
laughed	5 seconds ago. What a silly question. XDDD
hugged someone	'Round 2:10-ish.
kissed someone	Long, long while. :D;;
felt depressed	A short period of time last week, but we're all better now. :3
felt elated	Ooh. Every day. :DDD
felt overworked	...Eh. Also every day. XD;;
faked sick	What kind of person do you make me out to be? Tsk, tsk. :D
lied	I just had confession. Don't tempt me. XDDD
What was the last..
word you said	Dancewhore. XDDD
thing you ate	Gingersnaps. :3
song you listened to	Michael, you're the only one I'd ever want...
thing you drank	Grapefruit~
place you went to	School. XDDD
movie you saw	...The Heffalump Movie. zomgs they're British!
movie you rented
concert you attended	The imaginary Franz concert replaying itself in my head.
Who was the last person you..
hugged	Ariadne.
cried over	Megan, and Ariadne too in a way.
kissed	Daddy~
danced with	Ariadne. <_<;;
shared a secret with	Ariadne. XD;;
had a sleepover with	Justine, Cielo, and Mercy. :D;;
called	Ariadne.
went to a movie with	Megan and Athina~
saw	Mommy. :D
were angry with	My sister. :P
couldn't take your eyes off of	Alex. He's my frickin' blog header. XDDD
obsessed over	Alexander... and Nicolas :D;;
Have you ever..
danced in the rain	Hell yeah. :3
kissed someone	As in romantically? No. :D;;
done drugs	Ewww. No. Salad Fingers likes sunshine dust.
drank alcohol	I inadvertently got isopropyl in my cup once, but I didn't drink it. (I know what kind of alcohol we're talking about. God. XD)
slept around	I roll over in my bed. (No, I"m not gonna stop acting like a 4 year old, thank you. :P)
partied 'til the sun came up	I like having my sleep.
had a movie marathon	Whee! Yes.
gone too far on a dare	Uh. Dunno.
spun until you were immensely dizzy	OH YES. :DDDD
taken a survey quite like this before	Possibly. XD;;
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Wow. These things are annoying. And fun. But still annoying. Yeah. I'm bored. :P

I need to do my work. ._.;;

"What are your Laws of Life? Write a 2 page double- spaced essay about them."

DRAWING BLANKS ALL OVER THE PLACE OMFG. Not good. I don't even have a topic and the first draft's due tomorrow... craaaaap. You guys mind helping? I'd appreciate it. :D

I'm supposed to be working on English and instead I'm watching Salad Fingers.

"The feeling of rust on my salad fingers is almost... orgasmic."

Words can't even begin to convey how wrong that sounds. Go listen or I'll bite you. Megan knows from experience. :P


You know, everyone's just so... out there with their opinions and emotions. The thought's been nagging at me for a while now.

"I love you very much.... for being who you are and understanding me."

I'm much too sarcastic to be that straightforward and sincere. I like to make people think, and my personal friends know that all too well. It's not that I'm a liar; maybe sincere isn't the best choice of words. Heartfelt - that's what I've been getting at. It's troubling that expressing strong emotions is such a problem for me, when it's normal for everybody else I know. Ariadne says it's in the little things I do, but not being able to find the right words can be damaging. (see how important vocab is to me, Megan?)

No, I am not in love, so you can sit right back down and keep your mouths shut. :P The issue's just kind of annoying, is all.

Oh look, I've gone and disproved everything I just said. So much for those short posts. :D;; At least I have a topic now.

How the hell do you draw blanks, anyway?

Jesus. I'm supposed to be making up for the quickie post from this afternoon and here I am with one minute before I have to sign off. I'm THIS smart. THIS SMART. ADSJAKFSDJF.

I'm glad we've patched things up, j0. Although I couldn't come close to the raw emotion in Ariadne's last post (give or take), I tore myself to pieces mentally all the same. Sleeping difficulties, tortuous thoughts... all that good stuff. Thank God it's over.

Last week in a nutshell, and apparently I suck at am incapable of being even remotely serious in text. (because I like SAT words and I'm bored.) Talk to me personally, why don'cha. :P

(look Justine short posts omg! XDDD)


[edit: 10:58 p.m]

I have no idea what I'm doing here. I should sleep.

Finally have this thing up and running. Hopefully, I'll be posting more regularly in this, or rather, I hope I'll have enough time to maintain it.

I'd like to be more ceremonious about this, but 9th period is almost over and I have to be back at the mansion in 10 minutes. :D;;

Before I go, just wanted to thank all of you guys for enduring the torture of being stuck with me. Really appreciate it. (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. :D)


[edit: ...2:10 XDDD]

Holy fuck. Somehow the layout got screwed up when I posted it so I'll have to fix it when I get home. :D;;